It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything. I’d like to say it’s because I’ve been doing really well but the truth is the last couple of months have seen some highs and lows for me. Selling the house has been stressful to say the least and we’re still not there yet. There have been … Continue reading It isn’t the fall that defines you, it’s how you choose to get back up.
'When you are young, you can lose it all and still have something ' Young - RaeLynn (feat, Leeland Mooring) I was listening to this song on the way to country to country festival this weekend staring out of the train window and trying to fight the overwhelming nausea (I hate those pendolino trains). For … Continue reading What Happens When You Lose Everything
For a long time I was in denial about my role as Finn’s carer. He was able to do most things on his own such as washing, dressing, and eating. The kinds of things you typically associate with caring. I convinced myself that the increased burden I had taken on dealing with our joint but … Continue reading A balancing act…
My heart was racing, pounding as hard as it could against my chest. I felt the air leave my lungs and I struggled to take another breath. My hand was touching the car door but I couldn’t move. I couldn’t open it. My legs went weak and I stared blankly into the distance. Thought after … Continue reading Giving Up
The art of life lies in a constant readjustment to our surrounding. Kakuzo Okakura (The Book Of Tea) No-one ever said it would be easy. There were lots of reassuring messages at the time. Everyone wanted to help us feel better about the situation we had found ourselves in. They reminded me that Finn is … Continue reading The Realities of Life After a Stroke
An exciting and inspiring future awaits you beyond the noise in your mind, beyond the guilt, doubt, fear, shame, insecurity and heaviness of the past you carry around. Debbie Ford Guilt. A feeling I know well these days. There is a lot to feel guilty about when you’re the healthy one in your relationship. Firstly, … Continue reading Guilt
I remember crying one night in bed while Finn was still in the hospital. My mum tried to comfort me but all I could think of was that I had lost him. The man lying in the hospital bed wasn’t my husband. He looked like him but it wasn’t him. Finn could only say one … Continue reading The Next Few Weeks